After a long time I decided to check the site traffic on both the website and the blog. To say that I was in for a surprise would be the understatement of the year! I would have liked to believe that something was wrong, that the code was not correct, that the programme was not running properly. But that was not the case. All seemed in order except the flat line that greeted me instead of the pikes and curves. No one had dropped by in a long long time. I was staggered. I had been posting regular entries and nothing seemed to have changed.
Many questions crowded my mind: what had happened? what was I doing differently? what needed to be done? was there a hidden message? and each begged for an answer. True there was a time when over and above posting on the blog, one wrote mails to all friends and supporters with regularity, sharing news or begging for help. The last such onslaught had been at the beginning of the year when we were looking for help to buy our land. The land was bought and somehow unknowingly we had entered a new phase of our existence. Gone were the days when we simply needed enough support to survive month after month. We were now in another league. And perhaps this unconscious shift changed things surreptitiously.
The flat line that greeted me this morning was a harsh reality check. Something was wrong. Was it a case of out of sight, out of mind. A simple lack of visibility. I cannot tell. True we have not been in the media for long and true that direct communication has been far and few but things on the ground have not changed. We are very much alive and need all the help we can muster. We are still dependent on individual help and conscious of the fact that till date most of it has come via the net and blogging. So a flat line is akin to a death knell.
Had I sunk into a strange comfort zone where I thought that simply posting blogs would be enough to garner support. I must confess that there was a time when I did network much more actively. Was I content with the occasional comment posted on some bogs and felt secure? Maybe. But the flat line was a rude wake up call and I guess a much needed one.
We are alive and much of what we were earlier. We still reached out of over 600 kids and reach out to anyone in need of help. Our kids still bring us a 100% result and we had some excellent results in the Boards. Our women’s programme has grown remarkably and our new residential inclusive outreach is doing exceptionally well and is a great learning experience and a sound testing ground for planet why. We still need all the help we can get and have in no way grown a big head!
I confess to have been a little slack in my ways and promise to make huge amends as the life hopes and aspirations of many depend on it.
I am back to reading your blog. I was wondering if you would like to write a guest blog in my blog. That can be my 1000th blog post. Do let me know…I have done by 999th…
Thanks .. and I would be honoured to write a guest blog…
keep in touch
anou
As Gurudev Rabindranath wrote…..
“Jodi Tor Daak Sune’ Keu Na Ashe Tobe Ackla Cholo Re….”
This was a favourite with Bapu.
All great journeys are lonely.
Motivate your self with the fact that there are other souls who appreciate your journey.
Keep going girl!
I suppose I am as guilty as you, Anou. I am one of the guilty ones I must admit. This is my first visit to this Blog site. My usual excuse of having enough time to write is no excuse at all.
Look, I promise I will drop by more often. I promise I will make time.
Bless you all kind souls!
Take care!
Nick, Singapore, 20 August 2008.